"...for our God is a consuming fire." Hebrews 12:29
"Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."1John 4:8
God is love...God is a consuming fire.
Love is blood dripping, pouring. A gentle stream flowing. Warmly painting its landscape deep red, screaming violence. It is a gruesome, scandalous, yet...beautiful. It is life, what He spilled, life not ordinary but eternal and sacred. It Cradled the boy given to me, the Love that bled, my boy-perfect appearing. Yet slowly changing, shadows covering, lifts to reveal the ugly scar of death remaining. I'm left burning in the fire of His love that not only bleeds, but burns. I am engulfed, twisted in contorted agony. Fire burns not my spirit but my flesh. He is gone, out of my arms. I seek connection, my boy born from perfection. But there are no words, no life to give words, words to speak life. I sit stoic while breaking- in the red ReD blood that is burning. Fists clenched, spirit yielding, conceding and submitting.
He is a consuming fire and I am burning but it is love still.
"The heart breaks and breaks and lives by breaking. It is necessary to go through dark and deeper dark and not to turn." from the The Testing Tree by Stanley Kunitz
The most hideous lurking, foul demon hiding in the darkness of every soul. His light finds it, exposes it, they have to flee. To break off the old man and the old man's habits, the blood empowers perhaps the hardest thing asked of any human, to change.
"The undoing is almost always more difficult than the doing." The Magician's Elephant by Kate DiCamillo
Out from the fire...A New day is Arising. You will find me not burning, but soaring instead. A third day resurrection. My boy, me, it is love & fire. It is ReD.
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